Thursday, July 16, 2009

I am half dead writing this blog.

I was hoping that maybe i'd fall asleep immediately.

But this question really struck me " can love be so confusing". *sigh*. it is for me now. aghhh..and it keeps on bothering me.

When u have built a relationship with a person as supposedly friends, but he talks to u wen u need a shoulder to cry on, you share every thought with each other,you talk as if you were a couple, he always says things that make you feel special, wanted, loved. But this makes everything confusing.

The annoying thing is he can't be up front with you, and tell you whateva he is feeling towards you.

Well, all i know is when he tells me things all at in one moment, that he can't talk to you because he needs to focus and that he cannot be distracted.. etc...it really freaks me out, even though you say everything is fine..its not.

It leaves you hanging with unstoppable thoughts going through your head. It makes you wonder if whatever you are thinking or feeling is also happening on the other side or if you have done or said anything wrong to make him say that. The biggest fear is that you will lose the relationship u have built together..*sigh*....

ARGHHHH..Y is it so hard ?????

gonna try sleeping/...

what we could have been, 1:14 AM.