Monday, November 23, 2009

During my flight, just thought so much, tried sleeping but couldnt, emotional goodbye to mum. Im so grateful to her.Shes done so much for me and i thank her.

Just hopped off a 10 hr flight. Now im in Brunei. In transit for 4hrs...rghhh

Flight was pretty annoying. had families with babies all around me...rtghh...

Had to get up and move sooooo many times...si annoying...and my ON AIR TV broke!!!!!....sp miserable.

Well, im here in Brunei now, paying $3 BD to use internet. i qanan kill time, 1.20pm flight to singapore....update soon...baiii..

PEACE

what we could have been, 3:25 PM.

Leaving for the airport in 1 hr.

HAd an awesome farewell to gabriel ..HEHE..miss you GAB :)

if u are reading this.... sorry i wasnt able to say my goodbyes properly. Have a great summer, and be happy :) See you hopefully in 2 mnths..Will Miss you.._ X

what we could have been, 1:35 AM.

Sunday, November 22, 2009

Just found our that another close friend of mine is leaving. Why do the people you love, who understands you, to be your shoulder when you need to cry, the person who actually makes u laugh when you cry. I cant believe uve done all this. LOL

I don't know, i just feel like people are being taken away from me.

This person has been a great friend, i feel like i've know him for forever. Got along right from the beginning. And has been close friends ever since. amazing memories (only good) hehe..

Good luck.

will miss you. F

what we could have been, 12:09 AM.

Tuesday, November 17, 2009

Sometimes i wish God wasn't in charge of my life, so i can just end it with no consequences of going to ....( u knw where). SO i can get out of this miserable place, where happiness only lasts for so little. Life has been sucked out of me. I have no where to turn, no one to look up to, i just seem to be a statue. I have been waiting, longing for something to come to me to rescue me. But, that patience is leaving me.

I just wanna _ _ _.

I don't want to live anymore

what we could have been, 6:45 PM.

Monday, November 16, 2009

Night was going perfectly fine, just doing work and msn

But something always happens which changes your mood. *sigh*.. when you've been put in a scenario of both people, angry at each other, Violence occurs. You're there, you try to get in and stop it but you can't. Fear trembles inside of you.

I've tried and ive failed, i've been through too much and i just can't take it anymore. Living in fear that someone would kill you, emotional and physically. ARGHHh

what do i do?

what we could have been, 10:12 PM.

Sunday, November 15, 2009

Im a bit confused at this stage.

Someone is sorry for something i don't know what he did wrong...hmmm..

Just left a message saying" i have a reason to be sorry"....hmm..i get so annoyed when people just leave something like this. It doesn't make sense at all.

MAN...i need an explanation

why can't people just be upfront with you and tell you, instead of making things complicated...

PEACE.

what we could have been, 11:21 PM.

Thursday, November 12, 2009

사랑해요

Jang Geun Suk

Lee Seun Gyun

Jang Geun Suk

HEHE...OML..

I love "loveholic" cool korean band, and im completely obsessed with their song " Rainy Day and One Love" which i have for u to listen to on my mix pod. :)

Ive been away from all the korean drama for too long. Now, im back into it. Watching IRIS..(completely addicted) i love lee byung hun :) ehehe.

and also "you're beautiful with jang geun suk...hehehe...

I highly recommend watching korean drama's.

Anyway, ill be making a trip down to Wellington for the weekend.

Not really looking forward to it, kinda wierd that both my parents will be there..

OKOK..neway back to my IRIS.

TTYL

PEACE :)

DO i sound happy or what.

what we could have been, 9:42 PM.

Tuesday, November 10, 2009

T_T.....*cry*

ahh..just had dinner with the Bainbridge's...such an amazing family that i have AWESOME memories with. I met them when i was 10 or 11...GG....time goes by so fast. and every single time we meet at church or a youth event, i always never stop laughing, even when i cry or my stomach aches ....i still laugh...AHAH.. WE 're gonna miss you soooooooooooooooooooo much. BEST YOUTH LEADER OF ALL TIME and ALWAYS WILL BE THE BEST. ^_^

Well hello world.

rghh..got some exams back. Some i did well but some not so much...MAN i hate math..!!!! ARGHH... NXT year, ive been forced to take maths, chemistry and bio TUITION ..

.Argh...hectic much.

Mum wasnt too impressed with my math results XS. Just got a phone call from mum asking me to give her 3 reason y i shud go back to M'sia...sigh.. LOL the funny thing is mum thinks i let out all my stress on shopping. LMAO..so she says i can only go back and buy one pair of shoes.. WTH. i think thats impossible.

when i come back, no more fun midears..STUDY STUDY STUDY...no laptop after 9.pm ( im sooo screwd) and phone switched off at 8.30pm.

IM DEAD.

WISH ME LUCK ..

PEACE.

what we could have been, 9:47 PM.

Sunday, November 8, 2009

i remembered when life was good, when i never shed a tear or cry. Im waiting for something , someone, to pick me up from where i would start again.

I've been kept away from everything, its hard to catch my breath sometimes. Even tho my life is pretty screwed up i'm just at a transit, where u know that the better will come. Soon.

Time keeps moving on, through the sunshine and the rain. My dreams are still with me, and someday ill be who i wanna be. So for now, ill sit at the end of the road, at the end of the pathway. With my heart still waiting, ill wait for the brighter days where all my hurts will fade away.

Life goes around like the ferris wheel. It goes round and stops when u least expected.

There is no time to waste, live the extreme with no risks and fears. Because they will distant you away from the thing you actually need in life.

PEACE.

what we could have been, 3:49 PM.

Follow your heart and not your mind.

I'm glad i didn't let go...i was so close of just giving up. But something, i don't knw what it is but it was something telling me to not let go, and i didn't..and tonite it proved me right.

I guess im glad, and feel like a whole weight has been lifted off my shoulders.

Everyday is a better day.

Keep looking forward and never let go of what means the entire world to you. You will never be disappointed.

"you have stolen my heart"

and Thank You RINA you've done so much to get me where i am now. Really appreciate it. :)

PEACE...

"longer you wait the better"

what we could have been, 12:35 AM.

Saturday, November 7, 2009

ahhh... screw everything.

Im sick of this. lies piss me off. why do i have to be the one with the bad picture and not u.

SICK OF IT.

I can do wateva i want, I can hang out with whoever i want.

You hurt me bad. it turns out that everyone is the same, and whom u think u can trust u actually can't.

im done.

what we could have been, 7:54 PM.

Wednesday, November 4, 2009

Life is like a bully,

Never satisfied until you're crying
Never taking the time to help you up
Simply kicking you when you're down
Throwing everything it can at you
Beating you up
Pelting you with insults
It knows your every weakness
It's the bully that follows you from day one

Life is like a hurricane,
You can never tell if you should run
Never tell if you'll survive
You never know if you'll have anything
Or if everything will leave you
Never know when you're left standing in the cold
Homeless,
Friendless,
Hopeless
Adandoned

Life is like a rainy day,
Beautiful sometimes,
Horrible others
Digging up all the dirt you don't want it to
Lashing down on you as you walk
Weighing you down as you trudge along

Life is an adventure
Taking,
Giving
Leaving,
Coming
Stealing,
Receiving
You never know where it'll take you,
What it will take from you,
Where it will lead you,
Where is will leave you

Life is one big mystery

what we could have been, 10:48 PM.

Tonight i did a facebook quiz on " the state of my heart". WOAH...turns out they are 100% true about this.

this was their response to me:

"Your heart is made of Glass, so it's very fragile and sensitive. People see you as quiet and you keep your feelings hidden as you are afraid of revealing them to anyone. Perhaps you were hurt in the past and are terrified of being hurt again so your afraid of falling in love. To you true love is something unknown and trying to find it is frigntening, you need someone to come along and touch your heart so stronly it will never break."

what we could have been, 10:40 PM.

Monday, November 2, 2009

Life seems to keep moving on for most people.

But me ...not really.

Most of all, im confused. I'm still waiting for my answer. rghh... getting quite frustrated here.

Ahhh...exams this week. Can't wait for this week to be over. See all my friends again and can do wat i want ..YAY

Life seems to be heading good, ( i think), but nerves are pulling me down. XS

hmm...anyway.

PEACE. :)

some pics from Aussie

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what we could have been, 8:31 PM.