Thursday, October 29, 2009

Keep holding on, when life feels like a drag. There will always be someone with you, here for you. To make you laugh and forget about the pain inside of you.

I just tell myself to keep looking forward. There will always be a turn in life when you head downhill, but its something in a person lifts you up. U laugh, you live and u learn. every step of the way is a learning progress. You seem to forget the rest around you sometimes, sometimes you don't even realize that you have hurt them. Because humans are only humans, you make a decision benefiting yourself and you forget about the person standing right next to you. But it will always come back to you, it will eat you up,the traces of hurting someone will always be with you. A fault that can never be erased until the person forgives you.

To those out there, in any way i have hurt and broken you. From the bottom of my heart. I am sorry. Unfortunately, the worlds vocabulary only offers those to words to ask for forgiveness.

But here, i've left it at there. Now it is simply up to you to figure out the next move. To live a life hating a person or start a new beginning with love.

peace

what we could have been, 2:12 PM.

Wednesday, October 28, 2009

hhm...sitting in the amazing Qantas club, free food, free computer, everything free..YES

Well, im about to board a plane to Sydney then home to Auckland.ARRGGGGG... HATE IT!!

I've just booked a flight back to M'sia departuring on the 19th i think. BAck in like 2-3 months.

Well, on my trip to Aussie, awesome time here. Had time to think and sorta sort myself out a bit.

I see people on the street, homeless begging, workers working, lovers holding hands. Every corner i try to look away from and every thought i have i try not to picture you there, but it still remains with me. It has proven something to me.

I've realised nothing comes easily, and realised that i don't wanna let go of whats infront of me here. It kills me to be told that all that it's said is a lie, people keep telling me to get over it, but i simply can't. I need some kind of truth to keep me holding on. I have a fear of getting hurt, but with this i opened myself up and let it in and i still don't know where the truth lies.

So to everyone, just keep holding on. Love will come in it's worst and strangest ways. It will hurt you and it will teach you, it will give you strength and it will let you down. But at the end of this hard road, you will never disappointed. It's simple love.

" the longer you wait the better"

PEACE to you all.

<3

what we could have been, 3:30 PM.

Wednesday, October 21, 2009

I love you till the end - The Pogues

I just want to see you
When youre all alone
I just want to catch you if I can
I just want to be there
When the morning light explodes
On your face it radiates
I cant escape
I love you till the end

I just want to tell you nothing
You dont want to hear
All I want is for you to say
Why dont you just take me
Where Ive never been before
I know you want to hear me
Catch my breath
I love you till the end

I just want to be there
When were caught in the rain
I just want to see you laugh not cry
I just want to feel you
When the night puts on its cloak
Im lost for words dont tell me
All I can say
I love you till the end

such a meaningful song - for those who truly loves someone, this truly describes it.

what we could have been, 9:26 PM.

Starting to pack for Aussie!! Will give me some time to think and get away. I want to end the cries and confusion.

When you have one question for a person, which could determine how you would become.

But I can't get there, people putting stops and every road preventing you from getting your one and most important answer.

HAPPY?:) or SAD?:(

Just smile.

Be missing you..

what we could have been, 5:38 PM.

Sunday, October 18, 2009

I don't know who and what to believe.

all i can say is i hate it when someone tells you something and twists it to another person to protect yourself.

Is it true when people say you can never trust anyone?

hmmm...

what we could have been, 7:19 PM.

Thursday, October 15, 2009

Decided to not go to school today.

Got up at around 12.20.

Ate. and watched home and away.

A million things going through my mind. Im afraid things in me will change.

I wanna cry so bad. arghh....someone explain to me why i have to feel and be like this.

*sigh*.

downloading some sad asian songs. LOL.

okies.

off to the library.

PEACE .

what we could have been, 1:47 PM.

Sunday, October 11, 2009

damn, school tomorrow.

wanna cry, such a good but bad weekend. It feels like i've lost my mum forever, its hard for me to understand how Mum can change herself to this person i can't even think she could be.

I just surrender it all to God and pray for the best.

*sigh* i need a good first day tomorrow.

Missing someone really badly, wish i could talk to him would make everything feel better.

PEACE

what we could have been, 5:33 PM.

Thursday, October 8, 2009

something just made my day. ^_^

was talking to the most special person in your life at the moment.

*smile*

JX lah ..

what we could have been, 11:49 PM.

Tuesday, October 6, 2009