Thursday, December 3, 2009
Well Hello.
haven't blogged in over 1 week. Jeez..its been damn hot over here. Been spending A LOT of time with family. Went to Sg for couple of days and then to Malacca then Now in KL.
Been goin through some old photos of my late granma and granpa and also my great grandma. Found some documents of my late grandpa of when he began his journey of a journalist. and also some about his early life and achievements. I really do miss him.
And my grandma, i was reading a book called " Gilding the lilies".
Last year when i was in M'sia. A few weeks before her death the author and photographer of this book came to our family house to do an interview and photo-shoot with my grandma.
I was there in such a short moment of time to experience one of the closest moments i have had with her. To make her laugh, smile, and capture her beauty.
Most people know, back in the days, people were match made, and my grandma was already engaged to another person, but then she met my grandpa when she was working a fair, it was love at first sight, she broke her off her engagement and married my grandpa. She followed her heart and not by what people told her. She knew herself and what she wanted in life.
whilst reading this, tears filled my eyes. Thoughts immediately filled my mind, i wasn't sure what i was feeling, whether it was the feeling of letting go, or a feeling of holding on.Whether it was missing a person or forgetting a person. it was all mixed up. Confusion as usual.
The saddest thing that has happened to me here, is my 8 yr old cousin Clarisse, she said to me " Jamie, u have changed so much over this yr" of course i asked why, then she said " You used to laugh and be funny, but now, u seem so sad and down". This broke me down. I thought i was able to cover up all my flaws but God, even an 8 yr old could see through me.
Still here, going through more and more photos. It's a happy time going through all the moments i have forgotten but now, i feel like i am getting back in touch with it.
will blog soon, Love you all :)
PEACE
haven't blogged in over 1 week. Jeez..its been damn hot over here. Been spending A LOT of time with family. Went to Sg for couple of days and then to Malacca then Now in KL.
Been goin through some old photos of my late granma and granpa and also my great grandma. Found some documents of my late grandpa of when he began his journey of a journalist. and also some about his early life and achievements. I really do miss him.
And my grandma, i was reading a book called " Gilding the lilies".
Last year when i was in M'sia. A few weeks before her death the author and photographer of this book came to our family house to do an interview and photo-shoot with my grandma.
I was there in such a short moment of time to experience one of the closest moments i have had with her. To make her laugh, smile, and capture her beauty.
Most people know, back in the days, people were match made, and my grandma was already engaged to another person, but then she met my grandpa when she was working a fair, it was love at first sight, she broke her off her engagement and married my grandpa. She followed her heart and not by what people told her. She knew herself and what she wanted in life.
whilst reading this, tears filled my eyes. Thoughts immediately filled my mind, i wasn't sure what i was feeling, whether it was the feeling of letting go, or a feeling of holding on.Whether it was missing a person or forgetting a person. it was all mixed up. Confusion as usual.
The saddest thing that has happened to me here, is my 8 yr old cousin Clarisse, she said to me " Jamie, u have changed so much over this yr" of course i asked why, then she said " You used to laugh and be funny, but now, u seem so sad and down". This broke me down. I thought i was able to cover up all my flaws but God, even an 8 yr old could see through me.
Still here, going through more and more photos. It's a happy time going through all the moments i have forgotten but now, i feel like i am getting back in touch with it.
will blog soon, Love you all :)
PEACE
what we could have been, 12:19 AM.
